Missing

Just finished watching "The Ghost and Mrs. Muir" for the umpteenth time. Cried at the end again, as usual. But it was a bit different this time. It wasn't just the unbearably sad/happy ending of the two people in love, of Capt. Gregg waiting for Mrs. Muir's life to end so they can be together through eternity. It was that I desperately wish there were an afterlife so I can be with my John.

Plus, the bastard promised he would haunt me after he was gone and what has he done? Nothing! Not a peep! Well, okay, it would probably freak me out a lot if he did. But, still.

I miss him terribly. I'm still crying and I really need to stop so my eyes aren't all messed up when I go out later.

I'm going to get some work done now.

What next?

I should be working on my business plan. I should call AARP Travel Center (aka, Expedia) to see about getting a reasonably-priced hotel/motel/B&B room near the conference center where I'll be attending a one-day SCORE conference in a couple of weeks, where I will need said business plan.

I should be doing a lot of things, but somehow they're not getting done. But at least I'm writing this, because this is better than solitaire or any of the other games I could be playing and, until a few minutes ago, I was.

No more Dems

There was an article in the Sunday Times about Mario Cuomo and how little influence he's had since he left office and, in particular, on his son and his politics. It was very depressing to read, I nearly stopped before the end, but I persevered.

I swear, the Democratic Party is where Republicans were in the 50s. Okay, maybe that's a bit of an exaggeration. But at this point, I want nothing to do with the Dems. They no longer represent my view of things. It's possible that I'm just a little late to be realizing this, that they haven't really represented my views and my political desires, but as bad as the Repuglicans are, Democrats are nearly as bad. If not worse, because they've chosen to go to the center and, in some things (anti-abortion Democrats? Say what?) they are so far to the right that I can't even see them anymore.

We need another party. At least here in New York, I think there's still a Liberal Party, although I don't know what condition it's in. The Working Families Party is doing well, but I'm not sure they're quite what I have in mind. But maybe they are, I dunno. Or maybe MoveOn should become an actual political party.

Maybe I should just register as an Independent. I'm disheartened enough to be thinking about that seriously.