Yes, it's February 2nd and so what have I started watching tonight? Groundhog Day, of course. It's such a light piece of fluffy comedy...and I think it's one of the most important movies ever made. Well, okay, that may be overstating it a bit. Still, it's got a message that a ton of people find resonates with them, although most of them seem to think it has something to do with "God". I don't. I just think that, for all anybody ever says that one's attitude can make the difference between having a good day or a good life, this movie shows us how that can work. And makes us laugh and care about the characters while it has this underlying theme running through it. I love that.
For some completely unrelated reason, I've been thinking about my mother and my stepfather tonight. And money. More to the point, the resentment I have/used to have around how my stepfather could have helped me financially a bunch of years ago and he chose not to. I know I carried that resentment around for a good long while, but I think I've given it up, finally. Carrying around resentments like that is simply no good, quite unhealthy and it's one of those attitudes one can choose to have or to give up and it feels like I've given it up. Except I worry that there's still this little germ of it nestled somewhere in the depths of my gut...it's like I let go of 90, 95% of it, but there's still this little bit left, like a weed that's been pulled up, but I didn't get out all of the roots. And I don't think I can do anything about that--as much energy as it would be to carry around the full resentment, it seems almost more trouble than it's worth to go digging around to pull out the rest. Which may not make sense, but that's how it feels.
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