I did get to tai chi this morning and then I walked a lot and bought stuff I needed and got some of it delivered...but I was tired and already carrying a lot in my backpack (which I'm not supposed to do, which I'm now belatedly remembering) and it's hot.
I think I'm trying not to deal with the phone call I got from my mother last night about my stepfather's ill health. I don't know exactly what's going on or what I can do about it. I'm supposed to go down there on the 10th, which is the day he's now scheduled for...what? Surgery? A procedure of some sort? Hopefully, my mother will get more information tomorrow. If not, I may have to make a phone call myself. I just remembered, too, that I was going to call Delta today to see if I can switch my flight(s) and, if so, how much it'll cost.
I'm very conflicted about this, because there's a part of me that wishes ... no, I can't type it, I can barely stand to think it--but I do feel it. I'm sure I'm a bad person for wishing him ill and I also do wish him well, if only because I don't want my mother to worry about him and I don't want her to have to deal with his loss. I would say that I also don't want to have to deal with taking on responsibility for her or for him, for that matter, but I suspect I'm going to have to do that, anyway. Which is nearly an impossibility for me, considering that I'm in NY, they're in Florida and I don't drive. Also, I'm a person with time management issues as it is.
Oy. I mean, really, what else is there to say?
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