Forgot

I was reading back a little ways and realized that I hadn't mentioned that my stepfather died in January. It's odd how unaffected I was/am by this, other than it's changed my relationship with my mother. She feels alone now, but she hates that "other people" (namely me) seems to know all about her life. Because I have access to her IRA and money market account, so I can see online to whom she writes a check and how it much it is and when and where and for how much she uses her Visa card, because it's really a debit card.

There's so much I need to be doing to help her and I'm having a hard time getting it all done, for numerous reasons, at least one of which is that I don't know what to do half the time. And then there's the part about needing to spend time working and having a life. And I don't want to face the things that I do have to do, including flying down there again, so I put that off and it's costing more as a result.

Argh. Anyway, I made pumpkin muffins again tonight. Given some to a couple of people already, but I think I'm going to have one for dessert tonight. There, how's that for ending on a bright note?